Noël Ray-Ortega

"well well well

2008-12-05T23:04:46Z

if its not one cat-man, its another"

con_fuerza @ 2008-12-01T09:30:00

2008-12-01T15:35:17Z

I remember when the days were long,
And the nights when the living room was on the lawn
Constant quarreling, the childish fits, and our clothes in a pile on the ottoman
All the slander and double-speak
Were only foolish attempts to show you did not mean
Anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth

And as the summer's ending,
The cool air will put your hard heart away
You were so condescending
And this is all that's left
Scraping paper to document
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on

Cup your mouth to compress the sound
Skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town
And everything that I said was true
As the flashes blinded us in the photobooth
Well, I lost track, and then those words were said
You took the wheel and you steered us into my bed
Soon we woke and I walked you home
And it was pretty clear that it was hardly love

And as the summer's ending
The cool air will rush your hard heart away
You were so condescending
And this is all that's left
Scraping paper to document
I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on

And as the summer's ending
The cool air will rush your hard heart away
You were so condescending
As the alcohol drained the days

And as the summer's ending
The cool air will rush your hard heart away
You were so condescending
And this is all that's left:
The empty bottles, spent cigarettes.
So pack a change of clothes, 'cause it's time to move on

con_fuerza @ 2008-11-09T16:57:00

2008-11-09T22:58:12Z

Always looking forward.

con_fuerza @ 2008-10-28T12:10:00

2008-10-28T17:11:16Z

somewhat back to normal.

con_fuerza @ 2008-10-12T08:30:00

2008-10-12T13:34:30Z

I'm trying to think of something to say to someone who doesn't even deserve to listen.

con_fuerza @ 2008-05-01T06:22:00

2008-05-01T11:24:10Z

i think i'd like to move to the twin cities, where my brother is, after graduation. i love milwaukee, but it would be nice to have a change. i'd still be pretty close.

that';s all i got

con_fuerza @ 2008-04-25T16:39:00

2008-04-25T21:42:45Z

we got our kits today!

SO many good-smelling Aveda products. the dopest hair straighteners and curlers. EVERYTHING. i'm so stoked.i absolutely cannot wait to start cutting some hairs.

i will be taking models by summer-ish... probably like june. so let me know if you want anything done.

con_fuerza @ 2008-04-21T17:52:00

2008-04-21T23:58:29Z

pretty much the only time i can catch a picture is when he's sleeping

block building!

his hair is so gnarly, i love it

so these are all fairly recent... actually all from this month and the last two are from today. he's awesome. we're doing good.

con_fuerza @ 2008-04-14T08:49:00

2008-04-14T14:00:26Z

I start school tomorrow. I'm really fucking nervous for some reason. Like the first day of highschool nervous. Julian will be with my gramma for two weeks until he gets into daycare. That's good shit.

Anthony's show the other night was pretty sick. They did amazing and the crowd was really into it. I got carded at the bar, meanwhile a bunch of loud 15 year olds are walking around openly with beer. So that bartender was an idiot because I'll bet I was one of only a handful of people there who was actually of legal drinking age. Found out that a new ID costs $28! For some reason that doesn't sound right. But, whatev, I'll pick that up when I get my 8 Gs from the gov'ment.

The weather is looking good this week. Summer is on its way. Although, summer is never official to me until I go to Summerfest and wonder what the fuck I'm doing there.

con_fuerza @ 2008-04-11T10:17:00

2008-04-11T15:34:58Z

I start school on Tuesday. I'm both happy and sad. I sorta cried yesterday thinking about Julian being in daycare. I am happy to be leaving the stay-at-home mom life, but part of me will miss it a lot. It's security; for the both of us. If something happens, I won't be there to help him. On the bright side, my mom works in the same building that his daycare will be in, so she'll always be close. Julian is such a little bug. Anthony and I love him to death.

Going to a show in Illinois tonight. It should be fun. I haven't been to a show in awhile. I've been kind of elusive. I wish I had some friends going though. Zach's girlfriend is alright, she's nice... but I really just can't stand her calling every girl at the shows sluts because they looked at Zach or whatever her deal is. It's like Zach is who she is. I remember being like that. Maybe she'll grow out of it soon and become a pleasure to be around. Whatev.

What else? The gym is fun. I try to go everyday. There are lots of giant dudes with scary muscles. Girls with really terrible tans. A pizza joint next door which smells too fucking good after an hour workout.

Oh, I can't find my ID. I feel like I'm sixteen again.

Does anyone know what you need to bring to the DMV to get a new ID... just ID not license.

con_fuerza @ 2008-04-09T13:42:00

2008-04-09T18:42:52Z

con_fuerza @ 2008-04-08T13:08:00

2008-04-08T18:10:28Z

April is tough. This year and last. May will inevitably be harder.

con_fuerza @ 2008-04-07T08:33:00

2008-04-07T13:35:01Z

Some dude was laughing at me last night at the gym because I was watching the Suite Life of Zack and Cody while running on the treadmill.

My life is that exciting.

con_fuerza @ 2008-03-24T09:04:00

2008-03-24T14:29:30Z

I spent the weekend at my mom's, so Anthony and I had a chance to cool off. He came over for Easter yesterday, kicked it with the fam. Then we came home, put Julian to bad, and watched fucking repeats of Law&Order. It's not so bad. We love each other, but maybe we just need times apart? More space? I kinda thought I'd be getting married soon, but I can wait. Things change I guess. I've changed.

One thing I need to do for myself is have more girlfriends. This winter was really hard for me and I kind of just stayed in the house, even when people offered to hang out. Not working for so long really depressed me. Now that I'm starting school, I feel like I'll get a second wind. Anthony and I are getting a gym membership too. So that should help. Anyways, I just need some more friends. Any friends, actually. I haven't done anything with girls in forever. Anthony doesn't like listening to Britney Spears or Fall Out Boy in the car. And he most definitely won't sign with me. I wanna get tattoos and ghetto nails and drink beers (or no beers) with some down ass girls. Finding friends is harder than dating. Its super awkward and uncomfortable for me. And if I "like" a girl, I feel strange as fuck saying, "Oh yeah, I see you on myspace. Can I be your friend?"

I'm done I guess.

What's are your plans for summer?

con_fuerza @ 2008-02-24T23:04:00

2008-02-25T05:04:53Z

It's hard missing you.

con_fuerza @ 2008-02-07T10:01:00

2008-02-07T16:05:47Z

"I couldn't hear you. There was a crack in the planet. WOW, that was noisy!"
John Clasky, Spanglish

for you folks that know shoes...

2008-02-04T19:02:30Z

Does is seem strange that someone is selling several pairs of What the Dunks on craigslist for only $250?

The average price on those is $1600... the low end average being $1875...

I'd pretty much kill for these shoes but something doesn't seem right.

con_fuerza @ 2008-01-26T17:56:00

2008-01-26T23:58:41Z

There are no words.

con_fuerza @ 2008-01-01T10:37:00

2008-01-01T16:42:17Z

&

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!

con_fuerza @ 2007-12-07T11:50:00

2007-12-07T17:50:56Z

moved into a new house.... that's new!

con_fuerza @ 2007-03-07T10:21:00

2007-03-07T16:31:07Z

My mom had a gran mal seizure on January 2, 2007. It was believed to be from the combination of her medication, Wellbutrin, and hypoglycemia. Since then she's gone through a series of tests, doctors appointments, etc. We got into a small argument last night, during which she revealed to me that she may have MS. She has lesions on her brain and is scheduled for a spinal tap tomorrow.

I feel like nothing matter. Like life is pointless. I'm scared because I feel the relationship with Anthony and I growing more and more intoa family. We have our own baby. Our own new, seprate lives. Sometimes I wish I was still a kid. I wish I could have my brother back and be living the sweet life of a child. I have so much to be happy about right now. Everything in my life is great. Except for this. And my brother lives 6 hours away. He bought a house out there. He's never coming back.

I guess I have to stay strong for Julian, which is really fucking hard. It's Julian, Anthony, and I now. I'm mom and girlfriend. I live for my family. It's just scary to think that I'm in charge. I don't know how people handle this. How does one deal with the threat of loss?

Life is too short.

con_fuerza @ 2007-02-23T10:05:00

2007-02-23T16:16:38Z

So what's new, everybody?

Spring is coming, I can feel it. Sans the blizzard we are getting tomorrow. But Wednesday? Wednesday was Springtime. Totally.

Anthony's band is going quite well. They just finished the pre-production CD and it sounds SO fresh.

Oh and chest piece in like three weeks. And Julian is talking. He can kinda say "fire engine." He is precious. Some pictures maybe soon.

con_fuerza @ 2007-01-13T22:47:00

2007-01-14T04:51:16Z

life is good, folks.
i start my chest piece in march
i have a HUGE tax return coming
the fam is doing well
anthony and i get coffe every thursday
hair is growing
anthony has new tattoos
my family is very cute
mild winter

yeah that's it.

con_fuerza @ 2006-12-18T16:26:00

2006-12-18T22:26:08Z

yeah, today is my birthday.

Abbey Assaro's First Show!!!!!!

2006-12-07T20:11:31Z

The Response
Heroes! Villains!
Just Left
Between You and Me (first show)
Abbey Assaro (first show)

Time: 7:00

Cost: FREE!

Where: Eighth Note Coffee House UW Milwaukee 2200 East
Kenwood Blvd.

ABBEY ASSARO OPENS RIGHT AT 7:00!! BE THERE!!!!